UGHHH

I don't know why, but lately I've been feeling pretty angry... like all the time. I just don't know why. Tiny things set me off and I'm just mad the rest of the day. It's kind of weird... I'm not used to being all angsty... isn't all that teenage angst supposed to disappear as you grow up? 

I mean, I thought I got that whole deal out of the way in high school. All I did then was hate and be angry at everything. Why is this coming back? 

The main thing I want to say all the time is "uggghh"... and for some reason, I've been really wanting to get in a fist fight with someone--like if someone tried to steal my bag. I think that'd be a legit reason to get into a fight. Realistically, that's a very stupid thing to do and I don't think I'd go along with it. But still, it's this overwhelming feeling to punch a wall or something hard and inanimate. I just really don't want to break my hand. 

I hate feeling this way. I feel like I need to just explode and let it out, but I have no idea how to do so. Who can I talk to without taking it out on them and cursing them out? No one deserves that. What can I do?? AAAHHHHHHH!! 

Honestly, I think I'm just getting sick of people in general. And it's that piled on top of it being the end of the school year, work loads increasing, and the fact that I have 4 finals and a voice performance exam. I want this year to be over. And I want it to be over so I can go home, chill out with people I adore at home for a month, and then leave for an entire semester. Wow, New Zealand has never been so appealing. 

Please pray for me. I just don't want to feel this way anymore. But if its' God's will, then so be it. If I grow from this, it's worth it. I just need that reminder.